Mid Life Crisis

I used to have a not so bad job working in finance/accounts sector. Thinking back I have been working in the finance sector for about 16 yrs. Until one day I decided to go into the job that I always passion about doing - i.e. taking care of furkids (doggie) - provide home boarding for dogs. Eventually, I started off part time by doing boarding at home at a very slow pace as I still need to have a full time job to survive. I awlays believe that if I don't try I won't know what is it like and I will regret if I will to passed on one day.

Then I ended up working in a pet shop as a Hotel cum Day Care Specialist, sound nice, but ended up I have to clean and clean everyday, not only the working hour is longer, the pay is lesser than what I have been drawing, of course I don't say that I draw a very high salary but is reasonable. Moreover my mum keep nagging and nagging and eventually I have to stop the job at the pet shop. (Not because I agreed with her and some of her saying but I respect her and honour her coz she is my maternal mother).

I think God has been good to me, I ended up back to my ex-company as a temporary staff till to date only lately is that my assisgnment is going to complete soon and they don't require my service anymore. Well, that's mean, I have to start all over again, to look for a job, go for interview and eventually landed up in another 9 to 5 job which I have no idea how is it like.

Sigh..at the age of 40, I need to start all over again. This is a realistic world, people see your paper, next your age then your experience. Even if you have tons of experience, they will still access you base on your paper and age. If you are younger of course you stand a better chance.

Is this what I call my mid life crisis?...