Jacko,
Today is the 2nd days that you are not around. Usually Sunday after church, I will rush back home to shower all at home. Today mummy din go to church neither did I shower the rest. Mummy don't have the mood and moreover I went to the yearly event National Dog Walk at East Coast Park with yaki as Therapy Dog Singapore have a booth there and yaki and me is there to support. How is life over at the rainbow bridge? Seeing you passed away so peacfully yesterday at home, it really pains my heart. Though we only have spend 4 years with each other together. This 4 years is really a blessing to me and yaki. You came to me at the age of around 9 yrs (could be more) as you were once being abandoned and luckily Auntie Ruth found you and claim you back from SPCA and looking for fosterer for you. I wanted to find a companion for yaki mei mei to keep her company so I responseded on the foster portion. I still can remember when you first came over to the house. You are such a good boy, you only mark once and try to hump yaki which I stop and ever since then you dare not do anything. I enjoy watching the chasing between yaki and you. Yaki will just run around the house and you will just chasing behind and yaki would turn and see if you did follow. Is so cute. I really enjoy watching the scene for that 1 year. Then later your hind leg became weak and slowly you lost weight. But you still eat the same amount of food and still like to walk. In order not to stress you further, Mummy try not to bring you for walk. All the while you have been such a good boy even though you are grumpy but you and yaki mei mei are always so accomodating even though Mummy took in boarding dogs at times and later donut, buddy and lately crystal come by. Though you don't play with donut and buddy. You still stay with them in harmony and peace. Of course mummy tell them not to disturb you. Mummy do agreed that I neglected you at times as yaki, donut and buddy are attention seeker, they always crowd around me while you are always alone. Our bonding time is when during bath time, blow dry time each week and of course when I have massage session with you. Other than that, you are always laying down sleeping. I remember few months back, you develop sores on your body and I was so afraid I might lose you. I bring you to the vet. The vet also advise me no point to do blood test for you as you are already so old. Even if I do blood test and later it turn out to have many issues am I willing to come up with that amount of money to give you treatment? Financially mummy is not well do. I believe you know inside my heart that if I have that kind of $, I will sure treat you so that you can live much longer. The vet taught me to use natural healing on you as he told me this is killer sores and your heart is rather weak. Then after that, you slowly recover and you always like to walk and walk around the house instead of laying down all the time. By then, you can't even control your pee and poo. Each time you soiled yourself. I will make sure to clean and clean the area so that you will have clean place to sleep.
I am thankful that I am able to be with you and you passed on though I din saw how it happen as by the time I notice you already motionless and you are no longer moving. Though I choose not to take your ashes back home as you will always be a part in my heart. Each time I saw your stuff I can't help and tears begin to flow. I know I have to let go sooner or later so that you will be happy over at the other end. As Mummy told you, I will not keep the rocking bed for the time being, I believe you will come back to visit me and the rest. You are now an angel watching over us. When you do come do remember to lay down on your rosking bed,
Jacko boy, today i cook shark fillet with rice for the rest, While I was distributing the food, I was thinking of you, if you were around you also will have a share too,
Jacko boy, I miss you. I still can't help will cry and cry.
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